I was trying to remember the name of a high school teacher while dreaming. I had to wake up, and it still took some thinking to get the name.

I was also a young child in one dream.

The second time I woke up, I felt horrible. I wouldn’t recommend replacing OCD or sex drive thoughts with depression. You’ll feel like you are dying, in a slow way. I actually had to cry, to get rid of the feeling. Something still feels off though.

In my dream, somebody was rubbing my back. But I thought it felt like certain spots on my real back, were warm. But when I woke up, it wasn’t. So, it was most likely all in my head. The things your mind does after losing a pet. I was a child when somebody was rubbing my back. I was actually in school.

I couldn’t seem to dream anything else, it was always a kid again. Two of the dreams I might have been older, probably not an adult though.

Dreaming about puppies wasn’t really helpful. The puppy was tiny, and I was getting agitated, and then questioning why a tiny puppy agitates me. They also puked on my face. I was going to wipe it off with some paper towels, but then I got puke on the paper towels, so I was going to use water instead. But, the dream didn’t progress, and it changed again or something. The worst part was the agitation.

I’d reckon I’m never getting a dog again. Agitation is too risky. I let agitation rule my life.