Move

If you leave doors open, so anybody can get in, move to a building that isn’t secure. Clearly you don’t want to live in a secure building. There ...

Hybrid sleep doesn't work on my Motile 141

I have to hold the button to turn it off. Then it’s like hibernate after I turn it back on. Everything is still open. The keyboard and power light come...

Laowa 17mm will be in stock on March 5th

For $150 on Amazon, sold by Dodd Camera, fulfilled by Amazon. You can always pay $180 from other people. But I’ll pass. I probably paid $200 for my 4mm...

Some paranormal stuff might happen

Watch the latest episode of The UnXplained, it’s about Oak Island. That still doesn’t explain why I exist in the first place. My mom getting preg...

I do indeed like crying

Once it’s August, Tonka will have been gone for a year. I might not live that long though. Shouldn’t of checked my water, it’s 006, which m...

Time didn't always exist?

The next Ancient Aliens will be about the world before time. Wasn’t time made because humans “sin”? So, now you don’t get to live for...

This G-Technology drive

It takes a while to spin up. There could be a way to disable that, don’t know how, and am to lazy to search. But, if the drive is idle for long enough,...

Odd dream

Not only could she change what she has, later in the dream, we were both spirits, having sex. Basically light. I was trying to bring her into reality. But, I...

I like laptops you can upgrade for cheap

Like the Motile 141, you can add a drive, change the WiFi card. I bought the wrong RAM though, I thought there was two slots. Oh well, it works fine with one...

That's why God doesn't exist

Everything you do is meaningless. So don’t feel bad if you go to prison for something you did or didn’t do. Life is 100% useless. Who’s lyi...

I'll take that as a no

Asked somebody if they wanted my camera. No response. Maybe she changed her number again. Oh well. Two cameras is better then one.

I must like crying

There’s a really depressing show on Netflix. About an 8 year old boy who was tortured to death. It happened in LA. Was I crying about that or about Ton...

Raspberry Pi 4

I’ll be buying one of those in the future. The Pi Zero is to damn slow, especially the USB ethernet adapter. It might be 100 Mbps adapter, so a USB 3.0...

If I save enough money up

I can buy something in bulk, and resell it. Using Shopify of course, the $9 a month plan. Well, cables are cheap. Don’t have to save much to buy in bul...

The Raspberry Pi Zero takes ages to backup

It’s around 30 GB, and it only has a shitty USB ethernet adapter, it’s most likely running at 2.0, but slower then USB 2.0. The new script I foun...

17h4m17.6s

That’s how long it took to copy everything from my backup drive to the new drive, that is a backup of the backup. That’s 2.9 TB of data. Except t...

Woke up crying

About Tonka. Depression might make you angry all the time. Or maybe the lack of doing anything. Or both.

Shopify

Do they allow porn? It’s $9 per month, for the lite plan. Yeah, there’s some porn site you can sell porn on, but I like complete control of my si...

LAOWA 17MM F1.8 (OLYMPUS/PANASONIC)

Fuck, it sold out from Kenmore Camera. I was going to buy it soon. If I sell my E-M10 Mark II. Otherwise, I’ll just wait till April or May, or June. Al...

No erection

That was apparently shot on an iPhone 11 Pro. Lots of artificial light, and what you record with doesn’t matter that much, any modern phone should do ...

GeForce NOW

How is it only $5 per month? How much is Google’s shitty service? I think NVIDIA you get a PC in a data center, basically. That means, you can play any...

Geneshift Turbo

Looks like some stupid fun. It’s top down, like the old GTA games. It’s easier, you can come back as a zombie, if you kill as a zombie, you reviv...

The Amazfit GTS can last 20+ days

How? Magic. Put it on do not disturb, and don’t wear it all the time, maybe even go days without it on. Not using stuff does wonders for batteries. I&...

Bodhi might want to come home with me

My apartment isn’t big enough, he’d knock everything down. And, then I’d have to get up earlier, to take him out. Also, he’s not my d...

Latest Stable Manjaro Kernel Has No WiFi

On my Motile laptop, still need the Raven kernel, or I’d have to compile the Manjaro kernel with the patch that gets it working. Not sure what to think...

Russia might be fine with Trump or Bernie

They want the US divided, apparently. Why? That’ll crumble the US, if it’s divided enough. The US won’t be able to help allies, or anybody ...

Olympus E-M5 Mark II

Should I have her help me buy that? It’s $400 with a 20% off coupon. The only thing that it has that my E-M10 Mark II doesn’t have is the 40 MP m...

Bodhi is going to weigh more then Sofie

He’s already over 60 pounds, and he’s not done growing yet. Don’t even think he’s a year old. Sofie used to be the biggest dog weR...

Might need a new AP

Or a new WiFi card for my laptop. It likes disconnecting. Don’t think somebody is disconnecting it, that would be a different message in the log. Turni...

Visible might be a crappy provider

It’s a rip off, you’ll get under 1 Mbps most likely. According to this, somebody said their speed ranges from 100 Kb/s to 30 MB/s, or is it 30 Mb...

Xbox All Access

Might be popular, the only Xbox One X you can order, you won’t get till April 1st the soonest. It’s $30.99 for 24 months, but comes with more the...

Might skip buying the parts for my old CPU

I prefer to collect money then spend it all. Not enough money in the bank if I spend $300 of it next month. You need at least $450 in the bank all month. Wel...

Stalker?

Somebody likes revving up their engine in the middle of the night outside my apartment. Today somebody was blasting their music outside most likely. Probably...

The Xbox One X is only $300

At GameStop, on their site, none of my local stores have it. Is that the new price? Or just for today? How much is the PS4 Pro? That would make more sense, n...

I'll keep using Firefox on my laptop

Opera isn’t that great, not all images are blocked, on certain sites. There’s no white list in the config for the extension. And it blocks some i...

Affinity Photo updated

And according to the forum post, it didn’t fix the Apple Photos extension. Nothing about it is mentioned. You have to wait a long ass time for an updat...

That might be how you have an orgasm

Masturbate three times in one day. If you cum in them three times, you might get an orgasm. Hard to give yourself an orgasm. The last porn was curvy lesbian ...

6 TB WD $112 on Amazon

It’s the Blue model, so not a NAS drive. I’d buy it, but I’d rather wait till I can buy everything. The price will be back up to around $13...

That dump was painful

Am I constipated or something? My anus does hurt when not shitting though. Well, it did earlier. Maybe the hole got smaller. You can fix that with anal sex. ...

I was almost crying in bed

About my dead dad that I didn’t know. Another good reason I’m single, is I hit the bed while sleeping. Probably before I’m temporally paral...

Oops, I came again

I must of unintentionally programmed myself to get off almost instantly to porn. I started getting an erection before I tapped the link. I should of spanked ...

Textpattern updated

Super slow download. Mirror below, the checksum can be found here. 1.6 MB files should download instantly. Like it might from my server, the keyword is might...

BuyVM isn't an Intel fan

New Year, New… Intel exploit? Sigh. Since the launch of our KVM Slices, we have used Intel 1270v3 CPUs with SATA SSD storage. This setup has treated u...

Heartburn is easy to defeat

Wake yourself up before it comes up all the way. Then sit up in bed, until you think it went back down. Then go back to sleep. That might of happened yesterd...

What happens if you don't use a NAS drive?

It’ll mostly be for backups. Might be cheaper to buy a non NAS drive. NAS drives will last longer though. I suppose I might put Mythtv on it. I am lazy...

Work for the FBI, and get paid a lot

There’s another problem with law enforcement. If they were doing it for free, they’d be less likely to put innocent people in prison. Isn’t...

Another shitty kernel update

I’d have to go on my desktop to do that. That is compile the new version for the AUR packages. I should uninstall linux-clear, it’s useless. The ...

Maybe I should sell my bike

I probably only rode it like three times. Probably get at least $300 for it. That’ll really piss her off, if I do that. At least, she will have a reaso...

Lots of eggs and bread for dinner now

I’m to lazy to make rice, so I went to the store, and got bread and eggs. I cook the eggs in the microwave. The problem with rice, is you have to clean...

Now she's talking through my sister

Yet, she sent me a text earlier. I could talk through her to my sister. I have no intention of going to any appointments, also there are three appointments, ...

Another wet dream

Looks like I’ll be having a wet dream everyday, if I oversleep. That’s a good way to masturbate, without actually doing it intentionally. YouR...

I'll be waking up with heartburn

Nothing like eating yourself to sleep. The only way, I’ll stop doing that, is if I move to a group home. At least I’ll get more filling dinner. I...

Where's the evidence?

They talk about gathering evidence on Paranormal Survivor, but never show any of it. The evidence not being digital, isn’t an excuse not to show it. Yo...

Drive or rclone?

Apparently everybody only uses rclone for uploading to something on the internet, not for syncing two external local drives. It slowed to under 3 MB/s. It co...

Quantum computers

I need to get rid of my servers and WiFi once those are available. Everything will be hackable. Your SSH keys won’t save you. Probably should get rid o...

Now that's oversleeping

Didn’t get up till around 1:30 PM. The first time I got up, it was a little before 8 AM. Went back to bed around 8:30 AM. That’s a good way to h...

That's the last Red Baron pizza for me

The sausage tasted horrible, just like the one I made last time. I ended up picking the sausage off. I cooked it at 420, 20 degrees higher then it says, and ...

Everything that guy says is now false shit

He actually believes the US when they said they only found a weather balloon in Roswell. The military originally said it was a flying saucer, and they’...

Another wet dream

She was cis btw. To have a wet dream, it has to take place in my apartment. Except, the apartment in my dream, isn’t exactly the same, might be slightl...

Yup, I'm an asshole

See you in Hell, if there is such a place. Might just be reincarnated. If I keep my memory, I can be just as depressed as I am now, in the new life. On anoth...

The cracker loves disconnecting my stuff

That’s what it looks like happened from the log. They did it three or more times so far tonight. Got to love WiFi. Disable the WiFi, and use ethernet, ...

I only gained 6.3 pounds

In like a week. Probably when the scale said I lost 4.9 pounds it was lying. Or, I have a ton of shit in me. If I used the weight before I took my shower, it...

There's a wet dream

Apparently no sex drive during the day. But it’s there while sleeping. Not much of a wet dream or sex drive, the wet spot wasn’t much. Don’...

40 MP images are great

You can see her facial hair. If I had sexuality, that might turn me on. The masturbation I did a day or two or three I forgot when. got rid of my sex drive. ...

Mediasonic

Can you put a Mac mini on top of one of their four bay enclosures? Without the mini falling off? There’s no room on my desk for anything. Might not eve...

Goodbye Sprint, possibly on April 1st

If T-Mobile and Sprint closes the merger on April 1st. Enjoy T-Mobile costing more in three years. Verizon and AT&T can raise their prices as well. Will ...

How long has that been by my door?

One of those kiss chocolate candies, I think it is called a kiss. It was where the numbers are by my door. I don’t usually look there, so it could of b...

Still no Affinity Photo update

How long has macOS Catalina been out? Guess, they don’t want to fix the Photos extension for it. They are like Valve, refusing to fix stuff. I won̵...

Damn, my printer is to fat

At least 14”, according to my phone. Found a cheap bookcase, but it’s only 11.4”, for the depth. The printer would be hanging off, like my ...

More proof of reincarnation

Watch Paranormal Survivor. It’s only proof if you want to believe it. You can always believe in nothing. Some spirit that was in his house, said she lo...

Bodhi sure doesn't like it when I go home

She brought him with us, and he was crying when I got out of the car. Was getting my bags of food, and he was jumping on the seat trying to get over, probabl...

There's some awful women in the world too

Looks like not just men. That old lady in I Am A Killer, is most likely a liar. She was shaking her head while she talks. I can’t come to believe anyth...

Women must like making my mind go crazy

That’s what happens if a woman stares at me. How does that make you gay? If I was gay, I wouldn’t care if women stare at me. If somebody calls yo...

I almost mediated last night

Or early this morning. Two times. I completely stopped breathing both times. I’m to lazy to manually breathe, so I moved my head, and fell a sleep inst...

Not falling a sleep instantly?

Eat a bunch of food. I’d eat some chili, but that’ll probably give me heartburn. I’d eat rice, but that has to be cooked for an hour or lon...

Apparently this laptop has no Bluetooth

That’s a bummer. Don’t really need it anyways. But that might be why people are replacing the WiFi card, with one that has Bluetooth too. If it h...

Sex

That’s the only thing I can think of that you might not be able to do in the after world. It can’t be that great, nobody will have sex with me. M...

Can that guy help me connect to Tonka?

She can’t really talk, but she can bark. Unless, she can somehow talk in the after world. I only remember his first name. They said he’s awakened...

FreeNAS is an Intel fan

They only sell stuff with Intel. That doesn’t mean it won’t work on AMD, just that they love Intel. The problem is, a NAS enclosure would probabl...

That's a good way to stay in bed

Watch Surviving Prison, or whatever it’s called, before bed. I didn’t want to get out of bed today. There’s more people locked up in the US...

That will be four computers

If I buy the parts for my old CPU. I could move my Mac mini over to by my TV, but, then it’ll be hard to use with my monitor and keyboard and mouse. I ...

Surviving Prison

I wouldn’t recommend watching that if you are depressed. I’d end up dead in less then a week in prison. Either murdered by somebody else, or murd...

How does that work?

God might not exist, but life after death does. Well, I guess you can’t go to Hell or Heaven in that case. Some lady was trying to kill him. He died, b...

This might be an old episode

Of Bermuda Triangle. Said it was new, and might have a different episode name then the other two I saw, but the beginning showed stuff from the first episode...

How much are Motile laptops upgraded worth?

Can you sell it for a premium? Maybe. But if you put it on eBay, you have to ship it. Not really worth it. They can dispute the payment, and get all their mo...

Online dating is great for insane people

Or anything else you want to hide from somebody, like weighing 500 pounds. It’s also good for scammers. The dating site is most likely a scam. I don...

Another runny dump

Might be the cream pie I’ve been eating. Didn’t have any Sunday though, and got a runny dump. I took the rest of the pie home. There was some sol...

Surprised she likes beef stew

That’s one of my least favorite things to eat. Better off eating fish sticks then beef stew. Swiss steak is even worse. Two bowls of cereal isn’t...

Around $400 for the parts to make a NAS

With a 8 TB drive. It’ll be more then that, need another 8 TB drive to back it up. Probably a cheap external 8 TB drive. That’s also assuming I d...

That's sad

My $200 laptop has a better picture then my old shitty Dell 27” curved monitor, I should get rid of the Dell monitor, but I’m lazy. The monitor c...

How is I Am A Killer good?

All they do is talk about their murder. It’s not scary, so I’ll watch another episode. Netflix is a dick and started me on season 2. What’s...

Aliens exist, so nothing matters

At least that’s what people that believe in God would say. It just makes you not know what is or isn’t true. I think the point is, nothing matter...

Haunted has real stories

How do I know? Because an old lady got a cross stuck up her anus. She was possessed by evil. Anything getting stuck up somebody’s anus is enough proof ...

There's the smoking gun

Facebook didn’t exist in 2002, according to Wikipedia. Pretty sure it said the event took place in 2002, on Paranormal Survivor. Facebook didn’t ...

That's a horrible place to have sex

In somebody’s backyard. That happened in my sleep. I overslept again. I was trying to move us somewhere else, but it didn’t work to well. I might...

Want a shitty Chromebook?

Best Buy has a Dell Chromebook for $350. It’s overpriced, you just get a lousy Intel i3, 4 GB of RAM, and I forgot what else. The $200 Motile is better...

The Great Hack

You only need 70,000 votes to win the election, the other person can get millions, and they will lose. How is that a democracy? Well, I won’t bother vo...

Lost 4.9 pounds in four days

That’s over a pound a day. Might of just picked a good day & time to weigh myself. On another note, I thought I broke something off the laptop when...

That's a bummer

The Motile 141 only has one RAM slot. No wonder it’s only single channel. I only saw one RAM slot. I tried getting the other stick in there, but there ...

Lockdown

Just put that free app on my iPhone. Better then the Guardian app, that uses a VPN, so everything is on their server that you do. This has an optional VPN. T...

Another wet dream

She was trans this time. Oversleeping can cause wet dreams. I woke up two times, once around 8 AM, and the second around 10 AM. I was tired at 8 AM still. Bu...

How do you explain reincarnation?

If there’s no soul? There’s people that remember details from their previous life, that only somebody there would know. To Atheists, it’s a...

Make songs not in favor of law enforcement

And they will convict you of a crime you didn’t do. They can bring junk science in to get the jury to find you guilty. In America, you don’t need...

You know who's reading this?

Bots, to try and sell my useless info, to show me false political ads, to get me to vote for who they want. The jokes on them, if I don’t vote. Also, I...

That's some strong love

Watch the first episode of I Am A Killer. Not done watching it yet. But, the guy didn’t want to live, and she said she knew a way that it wouldn’...

Finally had a wet dream

The trick is, to think of somebody that you know, and to think the dream is real. Guess, I was waiting till after the sleep study. At least I don’t hav...

Motile best Linux laptop ever

Not preloaded with Linux, but all the hardware works in Linux. If you use a newer kernel, you need two patches to get WiFi working. It’s the best becau...

Manjaro Clear Linux 5.5.3 kernel for Motile

You can find it here. Should work on both Motile laptops, I have the M141 and it works. It has this and this patch, for the WiFi. Might as well use the Clear...

linux-clear

Does that kernel work with Intel WiFi? Clear Linux is made by Intel, so maybe. A newer kernel might make my laptop run faster when on battery. Compiling it w...

If she asks you what you do for a living

Say you are a head doctor. She might not be interested in you anymore, if you say that. Unless, she’s trans, then you’ll actually be a head doctor.

I kissed a trans woman

And I didn’t like the taste of my cherry asshole. A trans woman was eating my asshole for some reason in my dream. I wonder where I find her, she was h...

What screwdriver to open a MOTILE M141?

Apparently a star 2.0 and 2.5, the 2.5 is for the two corner bottom ones. Or maybe a 2.0 one works for all, if you know what you are doing. No, I don’t...

There's a way to prove paranormal

If possibly fake stories doesn’t convince you, do something they claim is possible. They claimed you can open a portal, just with photos in memory of s...

That's a bummer

Tried opening my laptop, but one screw got stripped. How a smaller screw bit stripped it, I don’t have a clue. Two of the screws apparently require a b...

Did he say Kali Linux?

That’s used for hacking, like getting on other people’s WiFi. I suppose you could test your own network with it. But most use it for hacking WiFi...

Sleep study is over

They didn’t wake me up to put a mask on me. Either no sleep apnea, or a very mild form of it. I need to take a shower, there’s white stuff in my ...

That's a slow drive

My Seagate NAS drive in an enclosure. Under 40 MB/s, that’s USB 2.0 speed, the enclosure is 3.0. The file is on the drive, but copying somewhere else o...

Is paranormal survivor supposed to be scary?

I find it kind of boring and stupid now. Probably after coming to the conclusion the show is fake. The paranormal guy in that episode is a phony, he uses som...

Masturbating is painful

Must of slightly injured my dick yesterday, or whatever day it was. Tried masturbating again, and noticed some pain. Looks like the skin broke on my dick, Th...

Found the Motile site finally

Here it is. The Walmart URL the quick start says to go to, doesn’t have the user manual, like it says it does. The user manual isn’t very helpful...

Android requires 12 GB of RAM

The new Samhung phone comes with 12 GB of RAM at minimum. You can get the most expensive model with 16 GB. Google could make Android manage RAM correctly, in...

MOTILE M141 more specs & bios pictures

00:00.0 Host bridge: Advanced Micro Devices, Inc. [AMD] Raven/Raven2 Root Complex 00:00.2 IOMMU: Advanced Micro Devices, Inc. [AMD] Raven/Raven2 IOMMU 00:...

Still no WiFi

Linux 5.5.3 has no WiFi with the Intel card in my laptop. I installed the linux-amd AUR package I compiled on my desktop, rebooted, selected it, and no WiFi....

Oops

I forgot to put my water in the fridge before bed. I was to tired to remember anything.

If Apple uses AMD CPUs in future Macs

They should put a AMD CPU into the Mac mini, and lower the starting price to $499. If, I can get my CPU to clock higher then 2.3x GHz when running Geekbench,...

I got duped

That was not about Alien abduction. About a pedophile. The preview says something about an Alien UFO abduction, but that’s just what she thought. The g...

Finally got my cheap $200 Motile laptop

And finally got WiFi, had to downgrade to the 5.4 kernel. I even changed Manjaro to unstable, and that 5.5 kernel doesn’t work either. Reddit said it d...

Nice

The T-Mobile Sprint merger might be approved soon. Not really nice, that means only three major carriers in the US. Just like with internet, you now get thre...

If you lie during an interrogation

They’ll use it as evidence. But the police can lie to you. As long as somebody confesses, it’s fine with them. They don’t care if they char...

There's a nice solid dump

Didn’t come out when I woke up. Might of been constipated somehow. Or I held it in to long. The runny dump probably surpasses the solid dump. So, you c...

She sure is angry

Calling her back was a mistake, sounded like she was yelling and/or super pissed.

FedEx is a joke

Want an estimated time when something will come? Well, sign up. But here’s the kicker, you have to wait 3-5 days for a code to arrive in the mail. That...

AMD based Macs?

References to new AMD processors were discovered in the macOS 10.15.4 beta, leading to speculation that Apple is working on AMD-based Macs, but it’s n...

Bizarre dream

Angels were pulling demons out of somebody. Don’t know who. Me? No idea, my dreams are in third person view, more like a movie. Now, if it’s in f...

Only 90,000 innocent people incarcerated

According to Innocent Man, at the end of the last episode. That show is from 2018. So it might be more by now. Instead of focusing on finding the real person...

"Who cares"

That’s a good motto, don’t give a rats ass about anything. If somebody beats somebody up, don’t care. If you get on death row without doing...

Don't watch the Innocent Man on Netflix

It’s a depressing documentary. And don’t go to Oklahoma. Their law enforcement is corrupt. Dealing drugs, doing drugs, knowing somebody else more...

You know what's funny?

When I was younger, I might of wanted to be a fireman. I think somebody told me that. Not anymore. I don’t want to be anything. And it should be firepe...

Curse of the Bermuda Triangle

One of the guys on that show isn’t open minded. No supernatural, which apparently means Aliens too. What happens when they look at the bottom of the oc...

She thinks I’m doing the sleep study

It’s possible I will. But it’s also possible not all of that jerky was done and I’ll be seriously ill. My stomach still hurts after eating ...

Paranormal Survivor is fake

That’s the conclusion I came to while sleeping. Can’t remember why though. I did read an article about paranormal shows, most of them are fake. S...

How did that happen?

Woke up with hair in my mouth. That hasn’t happened for a long time. Not since Tonka has slept on my bed. She stopped sleeping on my bed, it was hard f...

If you don't cut beef jerky evenly

It might take over 8 hours. I added another hour, so an hour and 31 minutes now. The fat pieces aren’t done enough. I did eat some of the pieces that a...

She doesn't answer her phone

She called and left a message I can’t really hear. Google thinks she said Hello, but it lasts around 20 seconds. Called her back, and no answer. She ha...

Depression and anger are related?

I think that’s what my previous counselor said. Might be true, as I’m angry, and I don’t know why. There is no angry about anything, just a...

The HDHomeRun might be malware

Feb 8 15:00:00 dnsmasq[820]: config 192.168.x.xxx is NXDOMAIN Feb 8 15:00:00 dnsmasq[820]: query[PTR] xxxx.in-addr.arpa from 127.0.0.1 Assuming the config ...

Beef jerky soon

Finally bought some meat for beef jerky. I did get vegetarian stuff too. The meat is in the freezer for 30 minutes, that is supposed to make it easier to cut...

Porkbun email forwarding is useless

It no longer forwards anything. I didn’t change anything. I tried sending the address an email from Gmail, and I got nothing. It should be forwarding t...

You need four grand to buy that

The AMD Ryzen Threadripper 3990X, but it has 128 threads. If I had that CPU, it would be idle most of the time. And four grand only buys the CPU, you still n...

Good idea

Don’t get a dog. Thinking about dogs makes me depressed. I just remember what happened to Tonka.

Headache is mostly gone

Still there a little. My bowels waited all day to happen. Tired probably doesn’t help headaches. Not going to her house today, to tired. Don’t wa...

What do you need a condom for?

STDs aren’t that bad, they might kill you, but so will drinking alcohol and doing drugs. Also, you may or may not get off if you have a condom on. Some...

More vegetarian meals

That’s what my second goal will be. Only eat meat sometimes. And buy “fresh” vegetables, and cook it in the rice cooker with rice of course...

Towels are useless

Got one towel soaked from drying off. Got another towel, and I’m still soaked. I need one of those things to dry your hands, but for your entire body. ...

Probably getting a lung infection again

Or something worse then a cold. Not surprising, that’s what I get, no cold, just worse. Trying to fall back a sleep and my feet are cold, so I couldn&#...

Brutal way to die

My breathing is fucked up because of heartburn. Can’t take deep breaths very easily. Probably going to hyperventilate. I could go to the ER. But, IR...

Ouch

The counselor wasn’t lying, if you eat before bed, you might get brutal heartburn. I took one of my pills. Nothing like ODing on heartburn medicine. Th...

Dying isn't a good goal?

Apparently not. He said two goals. I made exercise one, as that’s easy enough. Didn’t make a second one. So, the next appointment, I’ll say...

You don't need to love

If you cease to exist when you die, there’s no need to love or anything else. You can be a horrible person if you want, it doesn’t matter. Clearl...

I can't even have a wet dream

I was having trouble moving in my dream. Probably because I was paralyzed in reality. Then I woke up, before I got to the hotel room with her. Needed to shit...

What's wrong with socialism?

I’m to lazy to read the entire page on Wikipedia about it. But, it looks like I should move to Canada. Any Canadian ladies want to get married? Wikiped...

Why is charging for sex illegal?

It’s not worse then guns that can kill hundreds of people. I doubt the bible says guns for mass murder should be legal, or even made. There’s lot...

Apple is a greedy asshole

See this. Their motto is, “What can we do to maximize profit”. Customers don’t matter to Apple. Lock everything down, so it can’t be ...

That must be a miracle

How long has it been since I masturbated? I thought I needed to when I woke up. But I didn’t bother. Eventually, when peeing, cum will come out. Why gi...

How long can you live feeling like this?

I can’t imagine very long. How does anybody come with terms of not existing when you die? That means everybody you knew doesn’t exist anymore eit...

Fuck

There’s proof of nothing happening when you die too. She said it was like a black hole like she didn’t exist anymore. She overdosed on highly add...

That's some nice depression

I doubt the doctor would do anything about it. Maybe when I die he will. Oh wait, there won’t be anything to do then. I wonder what would happen if I ...

Boy does she get angry

When you tell her, something she said to you a long time ago. Most people will remember if you said there’s a special place in Hell for people like the...

OCD?

If it’s not automatic, it isn’t OCD. I got a paper from my ex counselor saying thoughts are automatic. The only automatic thoughts are when IR...

Was trying to leave my body again

But I fell a sleep instead. You just have to really want to leave your body to do so. That’s why they make some people depressed. It might be easier to...

The PS5 will be nice

I won’t have to deal with Steam anymore. Almost a two month bug, that makes playing on the TV using the Steam Link not very much fun. I like audio when...

Horizon Zero Dawn Complete Edition Hits

Funny, Amazon has it directly for $13, she paid $17 or so after tax. All I know is she got it on Amazon, I didn’t look at the envelope or anything. I d...

The more you learn about religion

The more you don’t know what to think. Probably because I know about the Alien side of religion, that they were describing Aliens not God. I have to s...

What is love?

It’s a figment of your imagination. Nothing exists.

NVIDIA GeForce NOW

GAMING ON ALL DEVICES That’s a lie, the only mobile is Android, the only TV box is their own SHIELD. And the only computer OSes is Windows and macOS....

No empathy means you are a psychopath?

Apparently your dog dying can change you into a psychopath. Except, that’s only one trait they have. You need no impulse control too. But, you don̵...

Getting ready to die

That must be why I have no need to masturbate anymore, that means no porn. Maybe that need will go away for good this time. If I die, it will. Brain is proba...

The smell of your tasty dinner

I was standing behind you at Walmart, your a very attractive red headed lady as I was admiring your beauty you farted and I mean a nice juicy one. So me bei...

Good reason to stay single

There’s psychological domestic violence. Some people might do that without even knowing it. Insane people that barely know what they are doing. So do t...

Glad I'm not an atheist

If you mediate and think of God or whatever they said, your brain scan won’t look like that of somebody that believes in God. Clearly believing in God,...

Don't murder yourself

The way you die, can affect your transition to the spirit world. Just watch Paranormal Survivor, on Netflix. Kids that have been brutally murdered by their p...

What does power over women mean?

That was on the Netflix Horseman show. He didn’t know what it meant either. Women might have power over me. Whatever that means. Does that mean they ca...

Don't play tug a war with Bodhi

Getting your finger sliced open by a dog, hurts worse then getting stabbed by a cat. You will lose a lot of blood too. He won’t drop it. So I can’...

Over 100 visits a day

Down to 9 visits yesterday. My other blog gets more hits now. No idea why. I haven’t posted on it lately. The bots finally got bored.

Do I even need food before bed anymore?

Maybe not. As I mediate and fall a sleep. Does mediating work without eating before bed? Food doesn’t get me to sleep on it’s own anymore. I got ...

Dead laptop is sort of assembled

Missing a bunch of screws. No battery in it, as the motherboard gets hot. It’s possible the fans are dead, they don’t turn on. I’m not buyi...